Later in the scene Proctor confesses to the court about the affair. He says:
"In the proper place - where my beasts are bedded. On the last night of my joy, some eight months past. She used to serve me in my house, sir.
He has to clamp his jaw to keep from weeping. A man may think God sleeps, but God sees everything, I know it now. I beg you, sir, I beg you - see her what she is. My wife, my dear good wife, took this girl soon after, sir, and put her out on the highroad. And being what she is, a lump of vanity, sir -
He is being overcome. Excellency, forgive me, forgive me. Angrily against himself, he turns away from the Governor for a moment.
Then, as though to cry out is his only means of speech left: She thinks to dance with me on my wife's grave! And well she might, for I thought of her softly. God help me, I lusted, and there is a promise in such sweat. But it is a whore's vengeance, and you must see it; I set myself entirely in your hands, I know you must see it now."
Proctor's confession reveals all of the following except that